Severely

很多歌曲，非常动听、非常讲究技巧，但并不深刻。

有些歌曲，因为某些故事、某些场景，忽然忘不掉。

最近迷上FT Island Hongki在WGM演唱的《Severely》。

生活点滴

好久没有像样的生活博文了！~_~

最重要的好消息是…… 我终于找到工作了！

说难听一点，终于有人要雇用我了。=') 几感动36721下。至于确切的工作内容，等一切稳定了我再分享吧。现在还在准备阶段，不方便多说。


另外一件事情，就是今天终于有时间，一次过看完Ah Boys to Men 1 & 2。我看到许多片段，最喜欢的是Tosh，但真正看完后，也喜欢长官S L Tham和罗邦（Lobang）！

对于S L Tham，心里感触良多。

他是一位电视迷都熟悉的演员，在很多连续剧中饰演歹徒、流氓、警察（不确定）等。跟新生代演员相比，他的演技、语言能力都很超群，肯演出这部电影，相比也是不怕吃苦的敬业演员。

无论是乐坛、娱乐圈还是任何行业，似乎都有他这种角色——才华横溢，但始终找不到伯乐，让他独挑大梁，演出主要角色。

有些人会红，但其实并没有实力、没有付出。但他那么有实力的，未必也有人会拱他上事业巅峰。社会之所以现实，也许就是因为努力付出和成就不能划上等号吧。

如果有一天，我有能力，有机会，非常希望请他挑大梁，演重要的角色。只因为，以他的演出实力，绰绰有余。

Tosh，因为他的演技，也因为他有一种正气。但…… 不喜欢现实生活中的他。

我很龟毛但是……

不禁注意到ABTM第一步开头，有一个战机坠毁在咖啡店旁的场景。嗯…… 不知道为什么，我就是注意到，摄影机摇晃仿佛地面震动，但仔细看，不难发现桌子上的水杯都没动，似乎忽略了这个细节。

有兴趣的朋友，看DVD的时候（支持正版！），可以注意一下。

ABTM是很棒的电影，但找碴，一向来就是我的爱好。无伤大雅。


我在YouTube出镜了！

我……一直是很怕出现在镜头面前的人。第一因为不自在，第二因为觉得自己的缺点会被放大36789325倍。

但是因为采访的关系，一再再出现在别人的视频里，有一点窃喜。呵呵~

为了6月开工能全心全意付出，尽力吸收新环境的知识和办公室文化，在接下来的半个月内，需要处理的事情忽然变得好多。

但忽然燃气的希望，转化为动力，又找到了自己昔日阳光的一面！

怎么说呢…… 以前无论是选学校还是求职，一直都算顺心。要进新民就进，要进义安就进，加上想在超崇拜的clicknetwork工作，也心想事成。以前虽然算是“顺心”，但开头仍然有许多压力和纠结。

这次要投入于一个全新的环境，不知道自己有没有勇气重新再来？

不知道自己有没有能力，也不知道别人是否会满意。所以啊……又是压力。毕竟我是狮子座，严于律己亦严于律人，很怕自己让别人失望吧。

一切…… 顺其自然。


还有！！！

最近总算看了之前朋友超迷的We Got Married！但看了国际特辑。

一对（Hongki + Mina）比较浪漫完美，另一对（Taec + Gui）比较现实而多摩擦。

换作以前，我会羡慕第一对的浪漫吧。但现在比较老一点了，反而觉得不完美的磨合，更加真实而甜蜜。虽然两人的文化背景不一样，表达爱意的方式也非常不同，但看得出他们是真的付出努力，用自己的方式爱着另一半。

说这个的重点是…… 我老了。

仅此而已。哈哈哈~

接下来还有3篇博文，不知道又要等到何年何月~~~~

*omou~~*

幸福

如果有注意这个部落格，就不难发现前阵子的我处于人生谷底。

你可能觉得这很可笑——22岁，谈何谷底？

那么不幸的事偏偏就发生在我的身上了。

 

我是幸运的，因为家庭美满，因为身子健全，因为还算聪明。

我是幸运的，因为没有太大的经济负担，因为遇到很多很棒的人。

 

哪里冒出的不幸，其实我自己也不清楚。

忽然有一天就哭了。

 

以前有位数学老师安慰我，说生活在遇到伯乐前，会辛苦。

到了某个阶段，也许自己会变成自己的伯乐，也不一定。

我觉得老师那是说的话，就是指我事业的现阶段。

 

求职，至今对我而言已经不是新闻。

我常觉得身边有很多亲人好友，但还是孤单、一切仍然不真实。

 

太爱我的人，不愿意告诉我真正的想法。

不太在乎我的人，懒得告诉我怎么进步。

有些讨厌贵，又很喜欢跟我说一堆废话。

 

所谓“忠言逆耳”，大家心知肚明。

大多数的人都不喜欢听，但生气气馁后，我还是会拿忠言来消化一番。

我宁愿你提高对我的要求，让我追着进步跑，

也不希望你一直骗我，让我在碰不到“满意”前，在途中彷徨。

 

最近还有一个感触——特别想念家里的钢琴。

我不是音乐才女，没有音乐天分，

但钢琴见证了我中学时期的迷惘，

让我发现只要肯练，我还是能弹奏出曲子。

 

以前无论是做功课还是遇到烦心的事，

我都会不自觉地走到钢琴前，在音乐旋律中疗伤、整理思绪。

直到失去了这个死党，我才发现它对我的重要。

 

 

青春，和我的钢琴一样。

或许现在我觉得苦恼，以后却会以此结成硕果。

或许现在还没发觉，但尽情挥洒后，以后才不会遗憾。

 

好笑的是，自己常常畏畏缩缩的。

很多事情我怕、我不敢、我不愿意尝试。

但遇到了我真心希望成就、努力的事，

叫我去死我也愿意（比喻而已啦）。

 

活了20年，即使还未成熟，总有几分自知之明。

我有点机车、有点拘谨、有点太敏感、有点太坚持。

不过最近看到那么一段话——

 

“以后的你，不必后悔自己过去的决定。

因为在过去的某个阶段，那次抉择是你最期盼、最向往的。”

 

或许吧。至少我选择相信。

 

我还怕自己成为“舒适生活”的傀儡，宁愿忙死也不愿虚度光阴。

 

所以，此刻的我幸福吗？还是不幸？
蛮幸福的。
所以还有什么理由继续呆在谷底呢？
是时候慢慢爬上岸了。

人生就像一场戏

 

人生就像一场戏。每个人扮演者不同的角色，为自己的梦想和目的努力前进。

很多时候我们以为我们无可取代，但其实我们就像演员，随时有人能够取而代之。

人生的价值到底是什么？什么时候才能放弃梦想？

Life is like a show. Each of us play a different role and give our all for what we believe is worthwhile.

So often we assume that we are one of a kind, when in fact any of our role can be easily replaced.

What's the value of life? When is giving up a dream justifiable?

数字会说话 · Numeric Talk

曾经有人那么告诉过我——数字不是一切。

这个道理很多人都懂。选择交往的异性，即使他在数字条件方面能满足你，但没有眼缘/感觉，就是无法成就一段感情。在选择学校方面，平方米最大、设备最多、学费最贵的，未必就适合自己。

但是…… 最近YOLOsg.com的数字有了起色，不知不觉中，开始对数字执着。

我告诉自己，数字不是一切，但数字会说话。当有一天数字对我不再有任何意义，或许就是我成功了。

到时候再回头看现在，此刻的百数，比成功后的多位数，更有价值和意义。

无论你是谁，只要曾经陪我走过，都非常谢谢。

Someone once told me that numbers isn't everything.

Many people understand what that means. The guy who has the best financial capabilities and assets still isn't The One if you don't have feelings for him. The school that has the best results, facilities, and is most costly, may not necessarily be the best school for you.

But... I've been a little obsessed with numbers of YOLOsg.com lately. It's an obsession that crept upon me unknowingly.

I constantly remind myself that numbers isn't everything (cos some content is worth featuring) but I know that it speaks of the direction I'm heading. The day when numbers no longer speaks to me, is the day I know I've succeeded.

Looking back at this present moment years later, THIS hundreds would surpass in value to the numerical values in the future.

No matter who you are, thank you for being with me, and witnessing this journey.

心理测验

除了摄影和手工外，心理学是我最大的休闲爱好。在网络进行心理测验，总能够让自己更加了解此时此刻的心境，能够客观应对自己的情绪和难题。

在理工学院时期，有人介绍了《精神年龄鉴定》测验，忘了当时的我几岁，但今天再做，以下是我的精神年龄报告……

自己好像一直都是40岁以上。=/

有一件事情是最近想说的。我从……去年12月开始求职找工作，刚开始的失败（或者说，毫无消息的情况）让我很沮丧。期间，对于找工作这件事情，我一直挺纠结的。

但事到如今，其实已经有点习惯履历表寄出去，一直都没有消息，反正都没有消息的失败。可以说是有点麻木了吧。

期待—〉失落—〉沮丧—〉无助—〉麻木

说实话，我真的不知道自己做错了什么。发电邮什么的都很有礼貌，很详细，也没有不好的污点。但就是得不到任何的回应。很希望自己还有一点力气去思考，现在的自己是忧郁？彷徨？迷茫？无奈？

但似乎一点情绪都找不到。

就像面对一位卧病在床的病人，当他已经断气，已经没有了心跳，又谈何痛苦和解脱？

至少这就是我现在的感觉。

有些时候，我有点客套、有点敷衍、有点虚假，但面对这类的事情，我完全没有必要“装”。

烦，因为有的家人一直唠叨，问题是我不是没去努力找，但就像碰不到如意郎君一样，努力没有回报，不如闭嘴不要在责怪？在我也想有份工作的时候，你的唠叨不能改变什么，但你内心的抱怨和顾虑，我一清二楚。

每天醒来就担心网站的点击率，接下来要安排的内容、活动、记者会、设计，做得开心，但真的不希望外人来打扰、来插一脚、来凑热闹。我不需要什么“拯救”，因为现阶段我执著的不是“成果”，而是“摸索”。

因为星座是狮子座也好、因为自己自尊心强也罢，我坦言，除非我认为你有过人的实力，否则我会认为，你没有资格批评我。更谈不上什么拯救。

好了。抱怨够了。以下是最近做的另一项测验结果——


At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Circumstances are holding you back, forcing you to back off and to forgo all the pleasures, fun and games for the time being. But this is only a temporary situation and before you even know it the situation could change.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

Stop the GLBT nonsense

I just need to rant a little.

ENOUGH OF THE GAY/LESBIAN COMMENTS, 

CYBER PEOPLE.

It's in human nature to stereotype people. We judge people base on their skin color, accent, language, personality, nationality, whatever. It's not right, but it's only natural.

But sometimes I feel like... The gay and lesbian comments online are getting out of hand.

Sure, sometimes I see a girl with really short haircut and my first thought is "is she a butch?"

Sometimes we see guys acting really girly and wonder "woah he's damn gay".

But it's a whole new level of offensiveness, when frickin' annoying people keep leaving comments EVERYWHERE, harping on the whole gay/lesbian stereotype.

You know when it's okay to want to find out?

When you are straight, and you want to know if that someone is available.

Other than that, LEAVE THEM ALONE.

Why am I so worked up today?

I had been watching a YouTuber by the name of Joey Graceffa, and out of the few videos I watched, I scroll down and see all the IS HE GAY? and GAY comments.

WHAT DO YOU WANT?!?!

So what if he is? So what if he isn't? Unless you want to date him, SHUT UP.

Why do immature people online think it's okay to target these people? What wrong have they done?

There are YouTube channels out there that I dislike and/or don't agree with. So all you have to do, is NOT WATCH THEM. How hard can that be?

Instead, you waste your miserable life going to EVERY of their videos, to leave the word GAY. Who is the one with a problem here?

Gay, is a status. It's not some insulting label you put on someone.

Do you go around and leave YouTube comments, asking ARE YOU MALE? ARE YOU FEMALE? ARE YOU AMERICAN? AMERICAN. SINGAPOREAN. MALAYSIAN. ATTACHED. SINGLE. MARRIED.

No, right? So what's with the gay and lesbian comments?

Sometimes it hasn't even got anything to do with the video. You watch a video, overlook the content, overlook the effort, and all you got to say is GAY? What are you doing online? You don't deserve access to the cyber world.

A person can pull of a certain role, that's talent. You don't have to say such disrespectful stuff, be it fact or rumor.

Looking through YouTube comments can bring such doubts about humanity sometimes. On a random cat video, people are fighting about religion. On Psy's music video, people are fighting about countries, cultures and beliefs. So many people don't understand that their "just for fun" trolling and annoying persistence can actually crush someone else. And that person didn't even offend YOU.

People are always talking about bullying, but I think comments online brings out the WORST in bullies.

Suddenly it feels like we're going backwards in this society. Traditional media is the way it is, to filter out such biased and extremists spamming. Cyberspace liberated such limits. But sometimes what's best is being limited. So... Is this society improving, or going backwards?